The fact that my recovery seems to fit in the gradual category, taking more time than is needed for some lucky folks, actually has its pluses. One is that, by constantly observing and assessing what I'm doing over an extended time, I get to learn about aspects of this protocol in some detail. And so I hope readers here will be able to benefit from some of the details I can report. Today I'll say a bit about what I've learned about doing the first two auxiliary exercises (see RFP, 2020, pp. 131-132).
As promised, here's how I've been dealing in recent months with the fear of a recurrence of the medical issue I detailed. As mentioned, most of my work with it has involved some blend of CBT and the distinctive exercises of the JWH protocol. Though few readers are likely to have to contend with exactly the same fear, I hope outlining this process may provide ideas to help others contend with their own fears.
I've mentioned before that my brief hospitalization in July presented an obstacle to my feeling consistently safe enough for pause to turn off more frequently or more lastingly. In recent months I believe continued concern about the possibility that the medical issue would recur has been the main obstacle I've faced.
I've added another video to those featured in this prior post concerning CBT. I'll embed it below as well. It keeps things simple, and might be especially useful to those intimidated by the idea of trying CBT as a self-therapy.
JWH has released two new videos on her YouTube channel. These follow on her webinar video, providing supplemental information on such topics as finding a healthcare practitioner to help you with her approach (spoiler alert: you're better off not doing so), some details about what is needed to recover from Type 1 Parkinson's, and some facts about supplements.
Below is a link to a segment from the BBC radio program World of Wisdom. I think it complements this prior post in which Ram Dass talks about perceiving your whole life as a dialogue with God, opening your heart to love with no boundary.
The last couple of months has been a time of concentrated focus and progress. Much of the progress probably wouldn't be visible to an outside observer, but I have enough experience now in the protocol that I believe I can tell when I'm making tangible progress. Here's an example...
“After two and a half months, the day of parting came. I was very sad, but she said, '... I am the mother of the universe, who is everywhere....' With tears in my eyes I looked at her and she said, 'Be fearless. I am with you.'”
~ Swami Rama on his parting company with Mataji, from Living with the Himalayan Masters.
Here's a song, perhaps more a mantra, that sums up, in one repeating line, the gist of much of what we're doing in the JWH protocol. I found that listening to it one time through had me singing it to myself afterward, like a gentle “earworm,” one that you may actually welcome running continuously in your head.
The artist's upload of the video is restricted in some parts of the world. So I've embedded here an alternative version with the same audio. (Thanks L. for pointing the song out to me!)